I have hit a "home educators" wall so to speak. This past week (on our family northern adventures trip) I had a mommy meltdown. I almost gave up on our homeschooling completely. The enemy just kept whispering things to me that made me feel defeated like: "I'm failing my kids" or "I am better off sending them to school."
It's all been an issue of behaviors due to age gaps of 9,6, and 3. A Beka curriculum was perfect for us last year, but now with two out of three using the curriculum it's been quite hairy. As a former early childhood teacher I thrive on schedules and lesson plans. Yeah, this isn't working in our homeschool. There is definite routines and plans in our homeschool, but I need to revamp and really pray and search out another alternative that will work for my girls.
In my situation it was suggested to try multi-age unit studies. I have been searching high and low which method would work for us. I just need a supernatural peace and strength to not give up. I know that the Lord has called me into this so he will carry us through. I have added a Biblical character training to the mix. Behavior struggles have surfaced I believe because A Beka is not really working for us or them for that matter. I guess I stuck with it because I am familiar with it. I used it in the private school system. Doesn't really seem to work for homeschooling, at least our homeschool anyway.
I personally need to learn how to let go of all of those rigid lesson plans as it's all I know being a former early childhood educator. Have a plan yes, but being flexible, yeah that's a struggle. I'm trusting that the Lord will bring me to a point that I can just relax. This I do not know how to do.
Hopefully, I can post once a week like I originally intended. This is a place for me to just really lay out my feelings and seek encouragement etc.
Blessed to be a wife and mom
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